Day 320: Just like it used to be...

I wish there was some kind of angel dust we could sprinkle on ourselves for some Christmas spirit every year. I've grown up with enough Christmas spirit to pass around each year. In the last couple of years, I've felt it fade somehow... I don't have enough of it anymore... This year, I wish for more Christmas spirit... just enough to share with the people around me... just like it used to be...

Tip of the Day: Make a wish this Christmas... wish for something that means so much to you.

Day 319: Baby, It's Cold Outside...

I apologize for the terribly, scary image from last night. I think I was half asleep and didn't realize how weird it was, but, hey, what can I say, it happens...

I'm better this morning... I thought I'd post early today so that I can make up for yesterday.

"Baby, it's cold outside..." is what my mom was saying to me this morning. I dressed myself and as I put my shoes on she came into my room and said, "You're wearing that? Baby, it's cold outside... " trying not to be confronting. "Im fine... it's okay. It's not that cold..." She looked back at me and forgot the tone she previously had as she yelled, "What are you wearing? Take it off! You're wearing a skirt! It's freezing! You can't go anywhere like that! People are going to wonder if you have a mom and if she cares about you! Your legs... they're bare! Look! Look outside the window... it's snowing!" I turned around and looked out the window... and, just as I had thought, there was no snow... "Mom, where do you see snow outside? I'm looking and I don't see any snow..." as I laughed. She replied, "Well, there is snow! It's December! There's snow everywhere now around the word! (Meaning "world" in her accent) We just in California so we don't see snow... but it's snowing!" The only way I could respond to that was putting some tights on... and, honestly, I'm glad I did because Baby, it's cold outside...

Tip of the Day: Listen to your parents when it comes to taking good care of yourself... even if they sound like they're hallucinating.

Day 318: On your own skin...

I fell asleep with the laptop on my lap, while I was trying to write today's post... I woke up and realized that it's on these nights that I feel the burden of this project on my skin...

Today, I realized that I was involved in something I didn't even know I had part in... The situation, somehow, seemed worse now that I was involved. I felt it on my own skin...

Now, I'd like to make myself feel a bit better about the situation... so, I face it... suck it up... and move on... Now, I can go to sleep...

Tip of the Day: No matter how bad you think you feel about a certain situation, you don't know how bad it actually is until you feel it on your own skin.

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Day 317: No Regrets

Well, the pain in my foot comes and goes now... It has reached a healing point where it only hurts when I wear a certain shoe, but no body ever died from a blister... so... I think I'm going to be okay...

I read somewhere, "I wish I had another chance... I'd do it all over again." It made me think for a while about what it was actually saying... If I had another chance, I'd do it again... I want another chance to do it again... I have no regrets... and, it made me realize that there might be things that we're sorry for, but do we actually regret the things we're sorry for? I'd say that it would depend on the situation, but there would be many instances that I wouldn't regret the things I'm sorry for... because even the things I'm sorry for are the things that have brought me here... they might have given me blisters, but I'm here now...

Tip of the Day: Try to understand every move that has brought you here... Even if you're sorry for certain mistakes, it doesn't mean you should regret them.

Day 316: It's better

The reason why I'm writing about blisters is not because I've run out of thoughts... Sometimes, you have to use blisters to explain certain things in life... Especially, when it's there for the whole world to see.

My sister text me this morning, "Is the ache in your foot gone yet?" I laughed and texted back, "haha" but, to my surprise, she replied, "Well did it? I'm really asking. I'm not making fun of you." Then, I replied, "Are you asking metaphorically, or my blister?" which really confused things more because she answered, "Uh, your blister... are you being metaphorical?" Let's just say there was a whole bunch of confusion in a texting conversation.

My only answer to her question was, "Nevermind... my blister is getting better." I know it'll get better... it's just going to take some time.

Tip of the Day: Sometimes, there's is more to someone's words than what they're saying.

Day 315: Darn Blister

As I sit here at this hour of the night, that is so late, all I can think about is the blister on my heel... It has been aching for a couple of days now, and, I'm tired of its ache. I just want it to go away now... I want the small heart, in my heel, to stop beating and for that nasty blister to just dry up and disappear because I haven't been able to think about anything else besides the pain. I can even feel the aching in my sleep... it's taking a terribly long time for it to heal. I want to be able to wear my shoes again... without the pain...

Tip of the Day: Some things in life take longer to heal... When you feel like it's never going to heal, just give it a couple more days.