Waiting...

I didn't think I'd be here today... I didn't think I'd have to wait... I thought it would come as a surprise and be sooner than this but... today, we wait...

I am exactly a week from my due date and I can't begin to explain what I feel these days... I used to think of it as happening unexpectedly and that was all there was to it, but I had never imagined going to bed each night and waking up every hour just waiting for something to happen...

I guess I hadn't thought of this part and had always imagined it happening differently. With that said, I'm also happy my baby is taking it's precious time to grow and nurture itself all that it can... The feeling of staring at an empty bassinet... knowing that next Wednesday you won't be alone in that room... it's unexplainable... 

Despite all the thoughts about the actual experience I have to go through, I can't stop thinking about how the baby will gaze at me and how I'll feel looking back at it. 

Besides all the uncomfortable feelings of the 39th week of pregnancy... the uncomfortable thoughts of what my body will have to undergo... I can't wait to meet you, my baby... I have never waited for anything more important... I have never realized what waiting feels like until now...