Day 201: Custom Made

Ok, so, I know I've mentioned, before, that I've picked out my wedding dress. Well, I'm getting it custom made, only because I already have my dress in my head, and, now, I just have to bring it to life.

The other day, I went for a fitting... Just so you know, we don't have a wedding date yet, but, I promise, it will be announced once we do... Armine is the name of the lady who's making my dress. I showed up to the fitting as she placed the measured cloth for my bust around me, then, helped me step into my skirt... I just stood there looking at myself in the mirror wondering how this is all going to come together at the end...

As I stood there trying to keep the cloth up from falling off, Armine asked, "Did you lose weight?" I just shrugged my shoulders and said, "No, I don't think so..." Then she said, "Do you plan on losing weight by your wedding?" I replied, "Ya, I think so, I'd like to... " She looked at me with wide eyes and asked quickly, "How much?!" "I don't know... fifteen pounds...?" As I said fifteen pounds, she stood up from what she was doing and said, "Ok, no, you can't be losing weight like that on me... I think you look good... but, if you know you're going to be losing weight, I can't work like that... when do you think you'll lose it by?" I replied, "Ummm, soon? As soon as possible...I guess..." Then, she answered, "Ok, then, go... go... go stop eating or... exercise.... or whatever... then, when you feel like you are ready... call me for a fitting!" as she started unpinning what she was working on. "Go.... go... maybe, hopefully, by January... forget about Thanksgiving and everything else... just do it... and, please, keep it by your wedding... because you can't gain weight again... then, we're in trouble... so, you got it?" I just smiled and nodded my head as I said, "Yes, I think I should be ready by January... ok, got it... thank you..."

So, I think I'm going to have to start weighing myself, dieting, exercising, etc., then, post it up, maybe once a week for my own motivation, and get ready to be the BRIDE already...

Oh, and the Cheeseburger I had today... that doesn't count.

Tip of the Day: With all the pressures of being skinny these days... know that if you do plan to get to a certain goal weight, it's only to make yourself happy with who you are. Be your own motivator and your own critic. Do what will make you happy, not what is expected of you by today's society.